Wednesday, January 27, 2010

Changing My Outlook On Things - Part Two

(The date up there says it's the 27th, but it's really the 2nd. The 27th is when I started writing this.)

Wow, was that a gripe session or what? I didn't mean for it to be. Let me start off by telling you a little bit about what happened. I started noticing my 4-year-old, Maddie, was starting to get a little pooch in her belly. I've sworn up and down her whole life that I was never going to have a fat kid, and I'm not. I had been eating Little Debbies and all kinds of snacks at any time during the day. Every time I ate something, Maddie wanted one of whatever I was eating. After I noticed the pooch in her belly, I stopped buying sweets. Her "pooch" went away...mine, however did not.

Also, I've been breastfeeding since Abby was born back on October 16th of 2009. We had to start supplementing with formula because she wasn't gaining weight. She couldn't tolerate the milk-based formulas so we switched to soy. She still was pretty fussy quite a bit of the time, so I stopped eating any and all dairy products which means no cheese and no butter - two of the most beautiful things on the face of this earth!

I figured the weight would just fall off me - not! So after being pissed for a few weeks, I decided to change the way I ate. At breakfast I'll eat two slices of toast with I Can't Believe It's Not Butter and some strawberry jelly - or a bowl of oatmeal (one packet of instant oatmeal) with no butter. Lunch I'll usually have a sandwich on wheat bread with mustard on one slice of bread, ketchup on the other and four slices of turkey breast. Supper, we've been having chicken so much lately I think I'm beginning to cluck.

But I think the most important thing I'm doing is exercising every day (I didn't exercise Sunday or Monday because I have some kind of virus that Maddie had). Yeah, I'm only doing the Wii Fit, but something is better than nothing, right? I do it for 30 minutes every day - the hula hoop for six minutes kicks my butt!

From the time I had Abby to before I started exercising, I had managed to lose 27 pounds. Since I started eating better and exercising (which in actuality has been about 8 days) I've lost 9 pounds.

I've managed to make myself think that when I want to eat some french fries, if I eat more than a couple, then I'm only cheating myself and I cannot stand cheaters. I will actually chant "you're only cheating yourself, Shelley - you're only cheating yourself" out loud as I'm putting the french fry or whatever it is in my mouth. I've always wondered why people cheat at games. What's the thrill in winning if you cheated? I've tried to apply that to eating. Why is it so wonderful if I eat the whole bag of french fries versus eating a couple? It's not wonderful at all.

What I miss the most? The sweets, the salty, the buttery, the cheesy, the starchy, the creamy, the chocalatey, the...I just keep telling myself, I'll be able to eat any and all that in moderation after I get all this weight off my bo-bo.

(I'm sorry if this post is hard to read. I've been trying to write it for a week now and I'm trying to cram all my thoughts into it before the baby wakes up. )

Forgot to mention something funny Maddie said this morning. I hadn't done the Wii Fit in two days because I've been sick. I thought I'd get on it and it would tell me I'd lost at least 3 pounds - NOT! I gained 0.2 pounds! What the heck? I can't remember exactly what I said, but Maddie knew I was disappointed. After doing the second or third exercise, I ranked like 10th place. Maddie says, You stop being mean to my, Mama, you man! She's so funny.

Trying To Change The Way I Look @ Things

So I'm on about week 1 of trying to eat better. I'm trying to totally change my way of thinking, and I actually think it might be working.

This year I'm hoping to attend my 20th high school reunion. But there's no way in hell I'll be going with the way I look now.

You see, I gained exactly 50 pounds with my last pregnancy. Lovely, I know. The worst part about that is I was already 75 pounds overweight! Why the hell am I saying all this out loud? Why am I being so honest? Other than the fact that I might have completely lost my mind, I thought that me documenting this might actually help somebody else. Although I don't know if it will or not because if you're anything like me, you don't want to hear anybody's wonderful advice about how they think you should eat or what they think you should do. So you can follow on this journey with me - you can laugh with me or at me, I don't really care just as long as you laugh.

I've tried diets before - I was on Nutrisystems when I was in high school, people! I was only, like 10 pounds "overweight" - and I wasn't even overweight. Did they like change the guidelines of what they considered fat was? I think I weighed 140 something and I'm 5'8". Anyway, that's a crazy memory I just remembered.

I also was on Jenny Craig for a while...think that was a few years after I graduated from high school. Back then I was only maybe 20 pounds overweight. Ahhh, those were the days.

I have never followed an exercise routine. The reason why I don't run is because my boobs would be like huge atomic bombs exploding in my eyeballs every time I took a step. My boobs are huge - always have been. Back in high school, I have some not-so-fond memories of hearing "Hey Dairy Queen!" or "Milk it does your body good, pass it on" being yelled at me through the halls.

Excuses, excuses, excuses.

Well, I'm tired of my own excuses and I've decided to do something about it. What am I doing you say? Well, I'm getting up off my ass is what I'm doing. I'm tired of being a fat ass, large Marge, two-ton Tessy - I'm flat out tired of it and I'm in the process of doing everything I can to change it.

I'll post more later. Right now I'm tired of typing and the 3-month-old wants some attention! More later, promise.

Saturday, January 9, 2010

Skillet Sausage & Rice - Recipe R&R

Last night I made Southern Living's Skillet Sausage & Rice.

YUMMMMMMMY. I loved it.

Kind of reminded me of smoked sausage fried rice. I thought it was delicious. Kelly and I both would rate this a 9. I might be inclined to give it a 9.5. So easy to make!

This will definitely go on the supper rotation for a while.

Chicken & Bow Tie Pasta - Recipe R&R

For lunch today, I made Southern Living's Chicken & Bow Tie Pasta.

The thing I liked most about this is you only got one pot dirty because you boil the chicken in the pot then you scoop them out and then boil your pasta.

What I didn't like about this dish has nothing really at all to do with the recipe, it's the fact that I found a bone in my boneless, skinless chicken tenderloins. It's a well-known fact that I will not eat chicken off the bone - totally grosses me out.

All in all, it was pretty good. Kelly and I would both rate it a 7. I probably won't be making this again any time soon. If I did, I would cook the celery and onion longer than 5 minutes and I'd throw the cooked chicken in there with it to add some color to the chicken.

Go Cowboys!!!!

Wednesday, January 6, 2010

My First Bolognese - and I'm not talking about bologna with mayo neither

This is my first time to ever make a bolognese sauce. Do you know how many times I've had to look that word up already to try and spell it? Too many to count.

I always thought bolognese sauce had something to do with bologna and mayonnaise. Wow - I just had to look that word up too. Man, I'm losing my touch. My court reporting skills have just about all gone out the window apparently!

I got the recipe from the January issue of the All You magazine. Here's a link to it.

Here's a picture of it cooking.

It calls for a cup of white wine. I happened to have an extra small bottle of chardonnay that my mother left over here well over a year ago. That whole bottle measured 3/4 of a cup, so I put in 1/4 cup sangria - by far my favorite wine. I'm such a cheap date.

Here's a picture of it after I added the milk and wine. I put the skillet on about 200 to 250 before it would reduce.

And here's the end result:

Kelly and I would both rate this a 9. It was yummy. It makes a ton though. I think next time I make it I'll only use one pound of ground beef and one can of crushed tomatoes.

As a side note, I also made fried wontons which was my first attempt I might add. My grandpa used to drive a truck for FFE. One of the many foods he hauled was frozen wontons. Someone would give him a package of it, and he'd bring them home and fry them in a little oil and put sugar on top - yummy. I put powdered sugar on these. Nobody else liked these. Kelly said they were bland. Maddie said she liked them, but I think she just said that so she wouldn't hurt my feelings. What a sweet little 4-year-old!